I feel sick, not physically. No sooner had I read about the symptoms of depression, than I realized that I had it. It does not just happen now. I had it for years.
Like what Kareema and Bonnie said, I
-totally withdraw from people
-one day I'm feeling up and I'm sociable and cheerful and the next day I'll be quiet and I don’t want to speak to anybody.
-feel like I am encased in cement, where I just can’t drag my body out of bed, where the simplest of tasks is just daunting and I have to force myself to re-focus and to pick myself up and to take the shower, get to the grocery store, write emails, make phone calls, and get through my day.
-can't face the world and nothing in particular was bothering me, I just didn’t feel like dealing with anything.
-the hardest part for me, was actually getting motivated, getting up, to even seek help to get up and go to therapy, or get up to go to the doctor to see what's going on.
2005 New Year’s Eve, Tromso, Norway.
It was the first time that I had ever seen the Aurora Borealis, the Northern Lights. Flickering curtains of dancing light against the dark sky, the beautiful blaze of pale green celestial lights is just like our tumultuous life. We seldom have a clue where life is leading us to, nor do we know the showtime of our life journey’s finale. The present is the only gift we can hold tight. If you can choose to be happy, don’t choose to be sad. Regardless of the problems swirling around you, move through life with grace, warmth, and vigor. Most importantly, stay emotionally elevated.
Feel the living, feel the happiness, and that’s right the meaning of life.
我们唯一能牢牢握在手里的就是此刻；如果你能选择高兴，就一定不要选择悲伤。如我这样的悲观者才能真正快乐地活着。
感受生活，感受 幸福。这就是生的意义。